Before all this started, I was so worried about what could happen. Everything from cord accidents to SIDS to drunk driving 16 years from now would flash across my mind and I would worry. Now suddenly, all that is gone. Before, I was worrying about all the things that could happen tomorrow, now I’m just glad I have today.
You hear people who’ve had life changing events say that you just live for the day you have and let tomorrow take care of itself. I’ve tried to do that, albeit not very successfully. All of a sudden, I find it much easier. I find the change in perspective interesting, and to be honest I also find it refreshing. All that worrying was exhausting, things are somewhat simpler now. I’m not saying I don’t get intense flashes of worry, but it is worry about what is happening now at least. Something catastrophic (to me) has happened, the world is still turning, and we’re still dealing with it as best we can. All we can do is keep moving forward every single day and take what joy we are given. I hope this is a lesson I get to keep, it seems to be a good one.
This doesn’t mean I don’t plan for the future (for better and worse), nor does it stop me from researching the known issues that we are facing. What it does mean is that I’m a lot less stressed, and a lot more practical on what I choose to worry about.
My husband felt the baby kick for the first time this weekend, that was pretty dang cool.